Charlotte's birthday

hmm... whenever I feel moody, depressed and all, few moments or days later, some things will lift me up again. And it was two days ago that we had this memorable night, dinner cruise at Brisbane river, to celebrate Charlotte's birthday. It was a wonderful dinner, and a very expensive one as well :P Of course, we never fail to enjoy our little make up party and preperations before that... hehe

You see, going on the dinner cruise was Charlotte's dream... and we decided to make her dream come true.... and of course we made it a suprise for her! hehe...

Due to our wonderful actors and actresses we manage to make her believe that we're bringing her for a dinner at the casino... by asking her to bring her passport as well :P Below are the girls that joined in... Suh Chyi, Charmaine, Ping, Elin, Charlotte, Gloria, Lorraine and myself.

Once again, Andrew was proven to be the luckiest guy again. Yes. He was the only guy who joined in that night. With all the girls fall head over heals for him........ NOT! haha... he wish...

This photo was taken on the side of the boat. It was truly a great night... the buffet was good... I had three rounds myself! Hmm... totally loved the oysters and ceasar salad! nyum... Sorry didn;t take any pictures on that.. we were too busy eating hehe... Then we sang birthday song and Charlotte had her chocolate peanut butter swirl made by Gloria and Alvin. Its not a cake you see... its chocolate mixed with peanut butter... I totally loved it! I would like one like that on my birthday! *hint*

On that night.... there was a guy with a guitar, singing tunes to entertain everyone on board. And of course, we all had fun on the dance floor too haha! We had slow songs and fast ones... I don't need to mention this but yeah, the luckiest guy danced with every one of the pretty girls. hrmp! how come we don't get to dance with handsome guys???! Not fair! :(

It was truly a night to remember. For Charlotte, as well as for all of us. I bet I will miss this bunch of people when I leave for home.

Revelati0n

Its sickening isn't it when you know there's always hard times in your life.... as much as the good times you would have. In fact I believe there's a balance between the two... and that God has a scale for us to have the equal amount of both! The more happy you become, the more hurt you'll get later. Even the happiest couple have problems. Even God hurts when He sees me like this. Maybe that's just how life is.... We can never be happy all the time...

I've been really happy in the past few months. Totally enjoying my life with my housemates and church friends.... like there's nothing to worry about in the world. But just these few days.... everything turned around. Why? spiritual attack? uni pressure? past hurts? not sure of where to go after I graduate? Or is it because my shephard is leaving already? Maybe its all rolled up into one... invisible arrows shooting me till I fall...

Sorry to have scared you guys with my previous post. I've really made many people worry for me huh. I know I shouldn't have written such a blog... but what's a blog if I don't get to express myself? I just wanna thank God for you. I couldn't have gone this far without you.

As for the fear. I command the fear to leave right now in Jesus' name! ............................................. ops... fear is still here. Well, I know one day it will go away. But I will take it one step at a time. Leaps freak me out!!

run away

I remember when I was young... I had a bad dream.... I woke up crying.... and my dad came to comfort me... carried me and pat me to sleep....

Things are different now.... There's no one there.... No one to comfort me when I'm afraid.... No one to stop me from crying..... No one seem to understand....

They say there's nothing to be afraid of. They say that its going to be okay. But why do I still tremble? Why do tears keep forcing its way out? Have you ever had the feeling that when you don't want to cry but tears keeps coming? Do you understand? I hate that... I really hated it.

I don't know how to describe my feelings right now..... Maybe I could use a song....

Run away - 陶吉吉

无名的怒火 有说不出的无力想敲打我自己
os:太阳快要下山了 什么都不做 只拿着遥控器 一直不停的换台
麻木的神经 感觉自己像个机器快不能呼吸
os:快打开冰箱看看里面的东西 唉~ 除了酱瓜什么也没有 算了吧 去外面吃 吧
火辣的太阳 永远在前方 无尽的公路 无尽的追求

我想要 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
甩开一切无所谓 run away run away

像困在雾里 焦躁的想从茫然的现实中逃离
os:唉~ 想 的太简单了吧 你觉得你想做的都可以做得到吗?
淡掉的感情 还坚持下去又有什么意义
os:喂! 你拿着车钥匙要去哪里啊 你别忘明天还要上班呢 别在外面鬼混了
风吹乱头发 黑暗星空下 无尽的公路 无尽的自由

我需要 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
甩开一切无所谓 就快去 run away run away
我可以 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
是为自己不为谁 不在乎的 run away

很多人再说 不断的一直说 必须这样子做 不能够那样做
却又没有办法在自己的生命中突破 oh ya~
如果再不走 就永远不会走 别让自己再回头 没挣扎怎能够有自由 快走

现在就 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
甩开一切无所谓 run away run away
快点去 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
是为自己不为谁 不在乎的 run away
现在要 run away run away
今天 要 run away run away
现在要 run away run away
今天要 run away run away

I'm back!

wow... I couldn't believe it myself! I hadn't blogged for 10 days already! Yeay! finally assignments are over... but that also meant the starting of my exam period! huhuhhu :( I miss holidays..... Anyway let me update you about what's been happening in my life lately...

Lately my computer failed on me. :( The Windows couldn't load up! Oh man, I thought I would lost all my files that time! Luckily I did some settings and finally I got the Windows to load. And I spent 2 nights reformatting and reinstalling my Windows.... Finally I reformatted my com after 2 YEARS! cool huh... hehe

Also, our caregroup had a moon festival celebration at Roma Street parkland. It was a fun night with good games and activities. Anyway it was Sharon who organized the event! Well done yeah! So happy to see her so willing to step out and serve God this way :) Hope we could really grow and serve God together yar. Anyway too bad we didn't really play with the lanterns.... a few of them were burnt before we could do anything with it :P

That next day was our church Renewalk! Its our fundraising event and all sponsored church members had to walk 10km. It was indeed a long walk, but look at us! the strong Daniel II haha...

It was really tiring especially under the hot sun. It was fun though, walking with a bunch of friends, just chatting and joking around while actually enjoying the walk! I think it was really sampat too :P .... we stopped to buy ice cream, kfc burger and we stopped occasionally for camera shots too hehe... It was hard work to our feet.... and at last... our final step....

Oh yeah! I'm so happy I lead praise in caregroup 2 weeks ago! I still couldn't believe that I actually did it! It seem so funny now whenever I thought about it. I was so nervous. I was so afraid. I'm sure there were cold sweat on my palm at that moment. But I'm glad I was given such an opportunity. It was really an experience that I will never forget. Thanx for all the support and trust. I love Daniel 2!

Also in the past few days, other than cracking my head over my assignments, I learnt alot from my deadly encounters with my housemate. Well... not exactly as deadly as it may sound... but it sure caused much arguments. Anyway, I'm glad that its over now. We had a long long chat and finally solved the problem. I'm sure that you have heard much from people that friends should not stay together. They say that we will be able to see the ugly parts of each other and argue and it will break our friendship. I never did believe in it... I still don't! I believe that if you care enough, cherish your friends, work hard enough to mend problems, it will never break. In fact, encounters like this would make friendships stronger in the end! So friends, I hope that we will always treasure our friendship. Its a waste to lose a friend like me, don't you think so? hhaha! Thanx for reading my long winded post! Cheers!

assignments

Its been really busy lately. Having one assignment to hand in this Sunday, and another one next week. I haven't really got the time to update my blog. Partly also because the internet connection here is crappy. Last night I waited for a good half an hour just to upload a picture! It is at these times I wish so much to have a broadband. Anyway I wouldn't be blogging much until my crucial busy period is over. You can always tag me coz I'll check the page once in a while. Take care while I'm away! :) ciao

My holiday

Wow... time passes so fast when you're having fun. I haven't even been sitting down to update my blog for a while! You must have been bored surfing my page since you can only see the same post all this time... hehe... don't worry... I'll tell you all about my holiday.

It started off on 24th of September when I went for the trip to Bribie Island. I wrote a post about it earlier if you didn't know. A very nice trip with the leaders! I really got to know them better during this trip... especially Gloria whom I found that I have lots of things in common with! hehe... except the fact that she loves cooking. :P Here's a group pic that we took. Lovely bunch....

We came back on the Sunday morning, headed straight to church and that's when I found that I have caught some rashes... ew... I'm still having it now.... Anyway after that 5 of us (me, Lorraine, Gloria, Chui Lian and Andrew) went to Harbour Town for shopping! hehe... we sure did spend lots of money. And we had loads of fun.

That night was really a night to remember. We stayed a night at Surfer's Paradise, and we had a great dinner :) Gloria had this idea that we all dress up for the dinner! haha... and of course..... we did... Below, its me, Lorraine, Andrew, Gloria and Chui Lian.

Andrew, such a lovely guy, went around Surfers and got us some roses... awww.... so sweet. hehe... He was indeed the luckiest man that night, having the opportunity to wine and dine with 4 beautiful ladies! haha... even the waiter at the restaurant says so! We had our dinner at Cav's restaurant. Nothing really high class... coz we have tight budget too.. :P

Photo taken after that...

We stayed at Islander resort. And they have a really cool pool table.

Next morning we went around surfer's paradise, did some shopping again :D And we just relaxed by the beach... wow... totally refreshing.....

Hope we could do this again someday soon....
ok...I think I'll stop here for now... will continue my 'story' next time. ciao! ;)