Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Evaporated

I know I don't have as much things to say. Maybe I don't give the best reaction you can get. But why does it make me feel so ignored whenever they indulge into some topic. Wasn't I there in the room before they started talking about it? How come I felt like I'm not there.

Its like I'm transparent. Suddenly I vaporized into the thin air. They can't see me. They can't hear me. They never gave another thought about me nor my questions. People think I'm just another kid. Why bother?

Is it so hard to give me a chance to be part of the conversation?

I guess I might feel better to evaporate into the thin air. At least I can float to some place far away. Suddenly I'm not even interested in the things they're saying. Suddenly I feel so tired to even be concern.

Don't worry, I will reappear when they need me.

9 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Whoa! That's deep. You seem troubled. Why not talk things out? Don't cramp everything inside until you explode. But, cheer up ya!

11:04 AM  
Blogger SaDdNesZ.jc said...

This is a problem I constantly face also. Whenver I'm with a bunch of friends, I tend to not get noticed. People only listen to me when they ask me something.

Some things are just like that. In a group, if you're not animated enough, or your voice is not loud enough, tendencies are, people don't take notice of what you want to convey. This is also due to the fact that most of us are so full of ourselves that we want to be the one who's talking, spreading our ideas, sounding intellectual, knowledgeable, and wise. But most of the time, if you listen carefully, most poeple who talk loudly are shallow...

:)

Don't take it to heart. It's not your fault that you're not born animated. It's your character. and you shouldn't change yourself into something that you're not...

there's more to this... I lazy to type out... hehehehe...

12:20 PM  
Blogger Amanda said...

Eva: Try to all the time...... never succeed. They are close to me that I find it even harder to speak out. sigh....

JC: yeah I guess that's true. Just be myself. Just hate it when you have no idea what they are talking about and no one bothers to explain. And well, if they don't want me in the circle, there's nothing I can do.

I think you're pretty animated, with lots of ideas to share! ;p keep it up!

7:50 PM  
Blogger SaDdNesZ.jc said...

I might be slick and smooth online.. but in real life, I stammer quite a lot. I suck at telling jokes, and most of the time, I only do punch lines... which, most of the time, people don't get...

That's why I'm into writing... :)

With the Ba. in Communications that I got, I could've gone into Broadcasting... But beacuse of this stammering... sigh...

12:23 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Aww... JC, don't let your stammering stop you from doing what you really wanted. We have so many other alternatives to express ourselves, thanks to the Internet. ;) If broadcasting is not a viable option, can try writing -- which you're more confident at. All the best!

5:03 PM  
Blogger Yian said...

Sun, this is a problem I constantly face, believe it or not, although sometimes I talk a lot.

I guess within a group of 3 or more people, there will always be a few who 'click' better with each other than the rest. Or are just noisier.

I don't feel like we can't talk, or don't click with each other. But everytime it's just the two of us with LC, PH, or EC, I always feel left out.

When it's the 3 of us, the other two of you always seem to have a lot to talk and laugh about, and I'll be so lost, because I dunno what you're laughing about.

It's not your fault, it's maybe my fault for not trying harder, but that's the way life is. Some people just have more in common, or are more in sync than others :)

Of course, occasionally I also moan and groan about it to Dan, hheheheheh ;p

10:38 PM  
Blogger Amanda said...

JC: :) Yeah I think going into writing is a good idea. A funny person may be fun to be around. But what's most important what you've got inside. Don't let your potentials go wasted. ;)

Yian: No its not your fault that you felt left out. Its our fault to leave people in the group out of our conversations. Though we never intend to do so. However sometimes its hard to get everyone to join in the topic.

The feeling sucks isn't it?

2:30 AM  
Blogger SaDdNesZ.jc said...

human communication... it's a very very fluid thing... one day you can do so well at communicating with someone, and then the enxt day, everything could just break-down...

1:01 PM  
Blogger rijac said...

amanda, friends who do not appreciate you and acknowledge your presence, or don't make an effort to include you in the discussions, are not worth hanging out with.

1:28 PM  

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