ICT fair

Bah... since I've told you about my 1st interview... might as well just tell you about my 2nd and 3rd interview. haha yeah... I had 2 more yesterday.

I went to the ICT fair in PICC(Putrajaya Convention Centre) with Lanzai and Yoke Yeng. Lanzai actually stayed overnight at my place on saturday night so that we could go there early the next morning. We got to that place around 9am. I thought we were early but to my amazement, the place was packed! We registered, got employer list and went to shortlisted the ones that we wanted to go.... which was 50 companies out of 73. :P Yeah... we were greedy. But you wouldn't wanna miss out on any good opportunities ,right~!

There were companies like Shell, ASTRO, Maxis, IBM... even APIIT! :P I dropped in my resume at most stalls and got myself 2 interviews in the interview hall. The 1st one was EA Consulting which had a graduate trainee position in ABAP Programming and SAP Consulting. Wow, she asked me so many questions.... my strength, weaknesses, success, failures, family background, and some other behavioral questions. I liked the position, but they were actually looking for people with 2nd class upper hon. degree. So I'm not putting my hopes high for that..... The 2nd one was a technical support position in Emerio. It went so so... nothing interesting... lots of Indians... and I left still hoping to get the call from DKSH.

After that I got myself another appointment for an interview on Tuesday in Manpower. I'm not sure whether its an interview or not... since the company is a recruiting company. Maybe its just to assess my skills and knowledge so that they can help me find a more suitable job? sigh... whatever it is... I just hope I won't make a fool out of myself.

1st Interview

Seriously I do not know how did the interview went. I just know I rushed through the questionaires like I was rushing for the train. I forgot to say things that I should have to promote myself a bit more. I said some crap about myself that I shouldn't have said. (How did I know it was crap? Because that's when they focus their attention to you and look at you one kind.) Many sentences didn't come out the right way. And I was nervous. I was always nervous talking to strangers. So its pretty normal........ ARGH! I wanna scream! How could I say those stupid things?

Hmmm... of course there are places where I think I did ok. I gave positive answers most of the time. I was friendly and smiled all the time. I gave some good examples. I dressed professional and gave positive body language.

And someone said to me, "Its ok... probably you'll get a better position with a better employer next time." That person made a good effort to console me. But...... does that mean the company has already rejected me? No hope anymore?

Its over anyway... I try my very best not to think of it anymore. I got a good experience out of this. But then... my mind just doesn't seem to wanna let go.... and most of the time.... I'm my own worst critic.

Stress!

Seriously I do not know where and how to start this post today. My mind is packed, stressed, excited, yet confused. If you know me well enough, or maybe do read my blog, you should know that I'm currently looking for a job. But then again, I didn't blog much about it :P

Two days ago, while I was surfing through the net and chatting with a friend, I received a phone call. I thought it would be a friend calling from somewhere... but... I don't recognize that voice. She introduced herself as Nancie, and told me she was calling from DKSH about my application for the management trainee in IT. The 1st thing that came into my mind was 'Oh man! wait till Yian finds out about this!' hahaha! She asked me to go for an interview on Saturday at TPM. I was so stunned I just answered 'yes... yes... yes...' :p aiks... I hope I didn't leave a bad impression or something.

I ran to my mom and told her the news.... And received the bad news.... she has school on Saturday! So I won't have the car. How am I going for the interview?! Maybe I'll take a cab there? Should I ask a friend to take me? Maybe I'll take my mom to school and fetch her back after interview? What if I got lost?!? Stress!!!

What am I going to wear? Should I tie my hair? What should I bring there? What should I say there? I need to prepare myself... I must practice my interview questions and answers... I must not be nervous.......... Man! I'm super nervous now!!

I know I can be as nervous as I can be now... just have to make sure confidence is all that's written on my face on Saturday. And hopefully pimples won't start popping :p

hmm...pimples.... I'm going to do my mask now. Ciaos!

I'm so pissed!!!

7.10pm - I was at LIDO shop and placed my order of a Singapore meehoon, one dish of vegetable, and a soup with the 'si tau po'.

7.10 - 7.45pm - seeing many people who ordered after me, leave with their take-away packets

7.50pm - The 'si tau po' came to me and asked 'you ordered what ar? Hokkien noodle??', fine! I repeated my order.

8.00pm - The 'si tau po' gave me my order... without the vegetable. I took the food, paid, and of course I did't pay for the vegetables. I didn't even look or talk to the lady, I was afraid that I might pick up my slippers and throw it to her face!

Its already the 3rd time such a thing happened in that LIDO shop! And it wasn't even busy there! Why am I always the victim to such things?! Is it that I look young and innocent, or maybe childish sometimes that makes people think that I'm bully-able? Not important?? Invisible?? Such disrespectful person! Didn't even care to say sorry for making me wait, or losing my order.

And I vow to myself that I will never buy any food from there ever again... even if its the only coffee shop in my area.

Best friend

I have a question.... What qualities should a person have to be your best friend?

Actually I've just found out that someone actually calls me her best friend... and I can't deny that I'm secretly enjoying it :P Well... of course I'm happy la! wouldn't you be if you were me?

I would say that I'm never really the best kind of friend I could have been... Sometimes I can neglect a person accidently whenever I'm excited over something else... I have a big bad habit-->I never initiate phone calls... which means... I never call :P and I never really tell anyone everything about me.... you know... I still need a little bit of privacy ma.

So what made her call me her best friend???

I have several best friendss.... I wonder if that counts...

Love

Some are so eager to find it. Some are desperate enough to grab anyone available around the corner. Why is it so? It had been creeping in our hearts secretly everynight. At least it is for me tonight....

How do you know what you really want from a relationship? From my past, I am still finding out what i want. Someone who makes me happy? Someone who is responsible? Someone who I can rely on? So what if he fits all 3 criterias and missed any other ones? And when you find him, will you tolerate with how the person is? Or would you want him to change into the way you want him to be? And when you make a 50 criteria list, how much chances do you think anyone would hit such a mark? No matter how 'perfect' the person is, somehow we would still find fault.... till sometimes we want out.

Many couples started off just within days of knowing each other.... and end up happy together through the years.... and people wonder how they do it. Some started off after years of knowing each other.

Which one is more likely of a happy ending?

Most people agree to relationships that started off from friends... but I don't quite believe the difference. Normally people treat their gf/bf different than normal friends..... well, at least I do... like pay extra attention and become more sensitive. So what good is it for him if I were to become a different person after we are a couple? Or maybe all he wants is the way I was when we were just friends.

We are to learn from our experiences.... but somehow sometimes it catches me in confusion.... not knowing where to go, what to do...