Meowww....

OMG! Aren't these kittens super lovely!?? :D Mew Mew!

Arrogance + Lack of Confidence

Have you ever known someone who is arrogant, and yet is a person who lacks confidence? Someone who boasts about the things he/she has achieved, and yet always whines that he/she not good enough and not capable? Someone who looks down at other people, laughs cooly when others can't do what he/she can do, and yet always seek reassurance from others of his/her skills?

I use to think we could only be either arrogant, or lack of confidence. I thought all I had to do was to balance in between. But instead, I realized how thin the balancing line really is, and that we fall to the sides so easily.

I remember what a friend said, 'Someone can project themselves as a person who lacks confidence, to hide away their arrogance.' The more I thought about it, the more I saw the truth in it. They can whine all day of their inabilities, but they are actually very proud of their abilities. They try to make a good impression out of themselves, yet they went to the extreme of both directions.

Being proud of one's achievement is good. But keep away from arrogance. Instead, keep ourselves humble and we will slowly gain respect. We should not lack confidence in ourselves... but instead, face challenges with open arms and be prepare to be taught... whether it be working knowledge or life lessons.

I always fall to the sides... in both directions from time to time... Here, I do not wish to show that I'm any better than anyone out there, but I just wanted to share a bit of my own life lessons. So that we can all learn together.

I love my job! And my car!

heheh! Thankyou all for staying tune even to my rantings while offering advice and support... I'm seriously very touched ;) Now I'm going to tell you how overjoyed I can be with my job! hahah.. I can be very contradicting sometimes. Well, ok, let me tell you how my day went yesterday.

Basically yesterday morning I was all nervous. I let one of my friend bring my car for service since I know I wouldn't have time. He's the aggressive driver type and owning a nearly-brand-new car makes me worry even more. Whole day I was waiting for his call, praying that he wouldn't crash my car! And whenever he called, I prayed that its not bad news! :P

Well, to top up my nervousness, my team leader let me make some changes to the firewall configuration (I have been monitoring the network traffic last week for this). And to make that change, I'd have to coordinate with seniors in other teams to schedule a test with branches in other countries. Now, why am I nervous? The idea of coordinating with seniors I don't even know is already enough to send me to my peak nervous state! And what if the new configuration doesn't work? What if problems arises? What if I got bombarded? What if I screw the whole firewall up? arghh!!

Though Eva tried to calm me down... but I couldn't stop worrying! And my leader seem to just dump me on the job and didn't offer to sit with me for the testing period. :( 'OK! I can do it!', I told myself, trying effortlessly to calm myself down, 'Its my time to show them my chilipadi girl power now!'... hehehe...

And yeah... I went through the testing period... with my heartbeat at its peak, I was sure I was on high blood pressure. You could imagine me, sticking to my seat, staring at my laptop, waiting for the countries to do their testings.. or awaiting for the possible 'complains' that might come in. But there wasn't any problems, except some application problem. :D

OMG! I lived through it! You can't imagine how happy I was~!! I sent an email at the end and thanked everyone for their cooperation, and it was OVER!! hahah! Few minutes later, I got an email from a senior, thanking me for my effort! hahah! I bet you could see my heart flew through the ceiling! arrhh~~~ such a relief... I've done it! Thankyou God for seeing me through! *smooches*

And my car came home safely too. Although that friend scared me to the max when he lied and said he scratched the back of my car. It was such a relief to find my car in perfect shape when I got down and checked my car. Phew.... It was dinner time after that, but too bad he already scared the appetite out of me. We went for a movie and went home after that, driving my cute 'siao bai', all smoother to drive. That friend, who had a mechanic father, helped me top up my tyres with nitrogen, loosen my gear box and did wheel balancing and alignment. Didn't charge me a thing for that too. Thankyou thankyou! Dinner on me next time! :)

Phew! What a day!

Is networking for me?

I've already been in this company for 2.5 months... 2.5 months into the networking job... and I'm still not sure whether this is my cup of tea.

Many people asked me, 'How is your job?'. I simply just replied 'ok ler'. I know I don't sound so enthusiastic about my job. But really, that's how I feel. I mean, how enthusiastic can I be? Looking at IP addresses all day long... looking at port numbers in all traffic... looking at the largest number in a list to jot down the maximum network traffic of the day... numbers... numbers... numbers... its really making my head spin.

I agree, its been great sometimes, when I'm given tasks that are new to me. And when I could learn something new. But sometimes, its just plain boring.

And one day when I was doing cabling with my leader in the server room, he told me he's not even sure whether networking is suitable for me (a girl). He said its because network people would need to go around doing the 'guy's job' (carrying things, screwing nuts, climb around to reach for the cables, work late sometimes...). I wouldn't mind doing those things with my best ability... but maybe my ability, being a girl, is somewhat limited?

At that moment in the server room, I happened to be wearing skirt, not to goda any guys, but because I'm born as a girl! (duh) But he told me not to wear skirt next time. :( Must I really become more boyish to do this job? Have to get rid of the girly side of me to do it all?

Tag it!

Wah! Thanks to rijac, this is my first time being tagged. Well, here goes... hehe!

7 Things You Plan to Do Before You Die:
1. Visit all 7 wonders of the world.
2. Become a well known successful IT chick
3. Have my husband sing 'Fix you by Coldplay' on our wedding ceremony
4. Own a Volkswagen New Beetle
5. Design my own house
6. Make a family scrapbook
7. Go for sky gliding

7 Celebrity Crushes:
1. Jude Law
2. John Cusack
3. Freddie Prinze Jr.
4. David Beckam
5. Benjamin McKenzie
6. ChiLam Cheung
7. Josh Groban

7 Often Repeated WORDS/PHRASES:
1. icic
2. Okay
3. Alamak
4. I don't know la but...
5. Really..
6. izzit?
7. Too bad la! what to do? Born to be (Use to be.. now still got ah?)

7 Physical Traits I Look For In the Opposite Sex:
1. Fair complexion
2. Smart, clean hairstyle
3. Straight, white teeth
4. Chubby cheeks
5. Well built body
6. Smells good
7. Thin pinky lips

7 People to Continue This:
1. WaiLeng
2. Dan&Yian
3. Eva
4. Saddnesz.jc
5. Benjamin
6. Edna
7. Jared

September

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

This song reminds me of the many things that happened in this month. Why do they sing a song about September? Does September mean anything to them?

This month a close friend went away to UK to continue his studies. Going to miss him. I wonder if things will be the same when he comes back next year? Maybe he would have UK-accented english by then, unlike now, funny manglish in every sentence. Things always change... no matter how much you want them to stay...

Read!

"Sun! What should I do now?!"

That's my mom calling from the study room, waiting on me to guide her through searching the Internet for some information.

She is pretty much computer illiterate. She knows it herself. Though she is slowly improving, it still really frustrates me whenever she calls me to do a simple thing, read through the instructions and click on some things, eg. surfing the net. I mean, how hard is it, to read through a page and click on the thing that you want? And when I have no idea about the page, she expects me to tell her what to do? *dumbfounded* How come I didn't get spoonfeeds when I started learning how to use computers?

Well, at least my mom is better than a lot of people out there, I might say. She learnt how to go online, how to check emails, how to use internet banking. I am pretty proud of her. Its just that when it comes to new things.... she just doesn't like to read.

And I could understand how frustrating it is when people just don't read through the instructions and complaint that it doesn't work.

Patching tyre experience :)

After much pestering from my dear friend Eva, I finally took my car to the service centre to check on my tyres. :P Its not that I'm not worried about my car, but i just didn't know where to go, what should I do, and how much I had to pay to fix the tyre. I didn't want to end up somewhere getting cheated and have to buy new tyres and all...

The service guy took a quick check on the tyre and walah! He found a nail stuck into the tyre... Oh, my new tyre :( Well, I guess he's quite expert in it, took a small rubber thingy and stuck it into the hole, patched it up, pumped air, washed the tyre, screw it back onto the car, and walah! its fixed. He's quite a nice guy too... Helped me check the air on all my other tyres and only charged me RM4. hehe... Then when I was leaving he helped stop cars from oncoming traffic so that I could reverse out. hmm :) Thumbs up for their good service!

However I'm still quite unsure of it all... Is my tyre really secure now? With one rubber thingy? What if the hole gets bigger? What if I hit another pothole? Don't wanna get myself stranded somewhere with a punctured tyre! Urgh... *shaking off the thought*

Flat tyre

What a good start of a day. I woke up early today (5.30am) to send my mom to work because she needs to get her car fixed. The only-3-year-old Waja is giving us problems again. Previously it was the glove compartment, then some loose fix at the back seat, now her car window wouldn't close! Pretty dangerous as the car is practically opened 24 hours for any thieves.

So in the morning we drove to the EON service centre and put her car to be fixed. Then I dropped her at her school. Once mom was out of the car, suddenly she shot me a shocked look, eyeing my car front and back... Oh o.... My car tyre is flat! Oh no! My mom asked me to drive to the nearest petrol station to pump air into it. But I just got more panicked cause I'll be alone! How now? What am I suppose to do? Will I have to change tyres? Will my car break down on the way to the petrol station? How do I pump air? sei lor!!

I went to Shell station, tried to pump air myself, got my hands all dirty, and still failed. I asked for someone to help me but the shell girl only directed me to the next BP station. sigh... And so I went and lucky enough, I got someone there to help me. PHhhheewwww... Thank God!

Well, its at times like this that I regret skipping that 5 hour class when obtaining my licence. :P

This week's update

hehe... looks like I'm going to do bulk updating again :P This week was nice...

1. I was given praise for my work the 1st time! heheehe.. They asked me to do some research on transparent proxy and make a report out of it. My senior read my report and said 'Good research, well done!' heheh! I'm so happy!

2. I tried the best grilled chicken drumstick ever! The marinate was tasty and soaks into the flesh, the skin was crispy, the smell.... wow.... tantalizing!!! I've been craving for it ever since then! And where is this yummy drumstick? Jalan Imbi, one of the stalls next to Honda showroom. After the dinner, Yian had 2 drumsticks for take away. And it filled up the car instantly with its aroma... Despite being full from the dinner, its smell still made my mouth watery!! One of my friend said the grilled chicken wing actually tastes nicer. I didn't try that ... well, maybe next time then :P

3. I got lost while taking my colleague, Eva home from office!! Well, as many of you should know, I don't drive to much places in KL. And because I was in Aus for the past 2.5 years, I really can't recognize much roads in KL. Well, I thought Eva would know the best way to go home from office. So, she guided me, and I followed, and then we went lost because we missed a turning. Arghh!!! We were really SOOO lost! We U-turned twice, hit 2 tolls... and suddenly we were heading to cheras!!??? arrghh!! And we went to UKM, then went Jalan Loke Yew, and straight into KL city with JAMS!!! OMG, instead of reaching home at 6.10pm.... I sent her home safely at 7 something. The night was dark already... And suddenly Eva turned to me and say "haha... that was adventurous! One day we should explore KL roads!", my eyes turned big and my mouth wide.... "Not again?!"

4. Cheng Fei is finally back from UK!! He's my ex-classmate from APIIT and we use to hang out very often. Wow, its really a different feeling since we've not seen him in nearly 2 years. Meeting old-time friends really bring back sweet old memories. Reminds me of all the fun things we did together with the whole bunch, food trips, silly jokes, laughters, and everything else. So carefree, so happy. I missed those times so much!

He talks with such proper language now!! haha So weird. When we went out for lunch today, suddenly he commented something like 'I couldn't believe I'm back!' My own overseas experience came rushing back to me... everytime I came back I felt so overwhelmed with the feeling.... the feeling of...... home. The roads are so different, the environment, the cars, the people. Without many close friends there in my 1st 2 years, I always longed for summer holidays when I could come back and hang out with my friends again. I remembered how much I missed them all... Now, I'm finally back for good. Instead I'm missing my friends in Aus! Pathetic isn't it?

5. I finally finished reading Da Vinci Code. Its a really interesting book. Such a good thriller. Then on monday after work, I went to Borders bookshop with Yian to grab more books. I bought Deception Point and A time to Dance. Now I'm halfway through A time to Dance! hehe.. I'm loving it!

Updates!

It all had been pretty silent in here for a while. No reason why... just didn't have the time, and probably didn't have much to say..... arh! alright alright.. I've just been plain lazy to update. So here goes, some brief updates on what's happening in my life :D

My work has been great. I'm adapting to the job very well and I'm learning more things as I go. And of course, learning more things meant that I would have more tasks at hand. So yeah, I've been getting busier. Of course, I am grateful for that! Feels good having some achievements and new knowledge coming in most of the time. ;)

I've done my 1st Network Security Policy presentation to the manager last week!! Wow, my 1st feel of an actual presentation to the manager. The manager, he's such a busy man. We started our meeting at 4pm and he told us he had another meeting at 4.30pm, when our meeting is actually scheduled for 1.5 hours. So the nervous me thought "Well yeah! We can definitely rush through the 22-page presentation in 30 minutes." So I stood in front, going smoothly through the slides, then when we reached the main part of the presentation, Woosh, comes questions after questions, pin-pointing at every point of every slide! He wanted us to change this, change that, remove this, explain that. Phew! Thank God my leader was there to answer most of the questions. From a 30-minutes presentation, it turned into a 2-hour one. And I was standing in front the whole time! Something huh! :P After the presentation, the manager said, "well, not bad for a 1st batch presentation!" And my heart flew! lalalalaalalaa!! My team leader said, "He didn't reject all our points like what he did in some other presentations, which means its not bad" And I thought "hehe... consolation prize." :P

I've had my 1st outing with colleagues on merdeka eve. It was fun since they are mostly my age, mostly trainees like me. We went to TGIF for dinner and a movie after that. Something worth mentioning was, halfway through the movie, the film got burnt! We could see that the picture suddenly went distorted, leaving some leftover burnt film by the side and white screen in the middle. Seeing that the movie wasn't that good, we silently hoped that they would give us a refund for another movie at another time ;) But the pictures came up again in 15 minutes and they only gave us free mineral water.....................

I went to clean up our Palm Court apartment with my mom today. Knowing that cockroaches roam that place freely, we brought a new can of aerosol spray with us. We fixed up the beds, swept the floor, cleaned the cupboard... and at the end of the day, we used up the whole can of spray and killed more than 50 cockroaches, mostly out from the cupboard! Its amazing how cockroaches know how to hide in a cupboard. And you would find it funny seeing us on a frantic flee whenever a cockroach or cockroaches came out from holes that we spray aerosol into! hahah! eee! Goose bumps! Anyway, we're not done with that place yet. We would go back again tomoro and bring another can of aerosol.... well, you've got to get them all out!

Currently I'm thinking of ways to decorate my work place. Despite the professional environment and the a-little-dull decorations that most of my colleagues have, I'm tempted to bring all my cute things to decorate my table! Teddy bears, colourful mug, cute handphone holder, pucca clock, cute cow clip holder.... Urgh!! Resist... resist... better not overdo it in case people think I'm too childish! :(

Alright, that's my very brief update!! hehe... better get to bed now. Night!